You're eating so I have time to rant a bit over here.


No, we haven't been together for very long, but yes, this is one of the happiest times I've had in my life. I won't say it's the happiest, that would be so hypocritical, but every single minute spent with you is worthwhile.

I know my mood swings really quickly from one octave to another, and I don't ask for you to tolerate that. Likewise, I'll tolerate your fucked-up ego (HAHAHA) and will only require you to say "Please" and "Thank you" every single time.

I'm sorry for my lack of confidence and pessimism in almost everything. Please understand I've experienced the hopelessness of being disappointed and it's definitely not a pleasant feeling. Give me some time. Up to now, I still ponder over ambiguous questions like how long will we last and all that when I clearly know I won't be able to have an answer right now. We'll go on and see, go on towards the misted future. And I don't like to embark on journeys that I can't see the road ahead. But isn't all relationships like that? Yes. That's why I'm entrusting my everything to you.

Yeah, you are very right.
To love someone is to give him or her the power to hurt you in every way, and trusting them not to do that.

I won't repeat all those pessimism I told you during our conversations. It's too depressing. They're all facts, yes. But I won't give you the chance to say I'm not able to love at all anymore. I know what I'm doing.

Know that all these fears I have, they've nothing to do with you. It's all in me. They bred and plagued my mind over time, it's not easy to eradicate such a stain.


Anyway, now as I think back... I look at who I had been with and I was like, "WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING!?"

Yeah. You are that awesome. Always keep that in mind.