I set the air conditioner to the lowest temperature, went to shower, came back into the room with my body still wet and sat right where the air conditioner was blowing, just in hope that I can catch a really bad fever and let it take over my brain for a couple of days so I can take a break from thinking and feeling so much.

I had a very nice day with my parents and an awesome dinner with my family, for that I am grateful. Yet I've also spent this beautiful day waiting for something that never came. It was not a pleasant feeling to check your phone again and again or jerk at the slightest tingling sensation that you'd mistaken for a vibration, only to realize there's nothing at all.

All I got was a phone call.

After a whole day, that was all.

On the bright side it means I don't need you as much as I think I do. What happened today proved everything.

I can't even bring the tips of my lips to a pleasant curve now.

I'm sorry, I really don't know what to feel for you, because honestly I don't think I should be dealing with all this shit when my day could have been perfect.

All I asked for was a sms, or some form of contact. All those breaks in between, or before you fell asleep, what were you doing?

You proved to me a hell lot of things today. I've seen and understood, thank you very much.