Shall end my absence with Hyun Joong.

Last day of lessons, like finally.

Honestly there's no time to sit in front of the computer and do anything now, with that mountain-like pile of homework which I'm not doing and all the TV programmes.
I found myself glued to the TV nowadays. *Halo appears*

It's just a mere 4 more months to Os! How nice is that!? ...

Not one fucking bit.

The fact that I should hve spent this June holiday brushing up my weakest subjects and I hve instead spent it on the bed snoozing away and watching TV is something that certainly made me... panick.

Not that I don't wna do well but... Alright I shan't make up excuses for my own procrastination.

So many days of lessons that sometimes I found myself staring into space, thinking of you when instead I should hve been filling my mind with integrating velocity and all that related.

Maybe you've realized this before I did but we do belong to 2 very different worlds. You hve your own interest which I'm totally clueless about, and maybe that explained why we can't hit. I feel like a juvenile, trying to capture your attention all the time through childish means and ways and seriously... I feel stupid.

Well, perhaps your idea of an ideal partner is one who shares the same interest, who's as mature as you are, who's as tall as you are, who thinks as rationally as you are, who doesn't bothers you all the time and knows at one glance what you're thinking, who knows you inside out, who clicks with you... So many things I can think of that I can't fufil.

Your thoughts are extremely hard to grasp, you know?

Maybe 2 years or so down the road, everything we are now will just... vapourize.

All those pleasant memories we had will just be thrown to a little corner at the back of your memory lane.

But all in all, my feelings, it doesn't matter to you anyway, does it?